No witnesses and too much junk food

So, I have had some time to myself and with that there are no witnesses to the junk food I have been eating. I admit it I have had Swiss Cake Rolls and washed them down with Coca Cola. Why is it if there is nobody to catch me eating and drinking the wrong things I instantly want to binge. It is not like anyone can stop me from having these things but its like if there are no witnesses to the event of me eating a package of Swiss Cake Rolls in under two minutes and then washing it down with Coke it never happened. Unfortunately, it did and my butt can prove it.

On another note, I have started to use the over the counter weight loss medication Alli.Yes I do know it will not work if I continue my destructive behavior listed above. I think that is why I needed to confess to all of you who actually read this. Well, Alli is interesting. I am not sure if it will work or not. If you have read the literature on it you may be afraid of the so called "treatment effects". I was afraid of them too which is why I have not tried it up to now. For those of you who are unfamiliar, "treatment effects" happen with Alli when you eat too much fat with your meal. Alli works by blocking fat absorption in your body so if your meal contains a lot of fat you may have some unpleasant gastrointestinal side effects. I have not seen this. True, most of the time (with the exception of my recent lapse listed above) I do try to keep to a low fat diet. So perhaps my fat content has been low enough to avoid the worst of these effects. Not sure. I will let you guys know if it actually helps lose weight, well once I get back on the wagon from the Coke and Swiss Cake Rolls anyway.

Note to anyone trying to lose weight or just not gain, DO NOT BRING YOUR ADDICTIVE FOOD AND BEVERAGES IN THE HOUSE. You will just Binge. Even if you think you can eat just one, you can't. Not if they are the foods you are truly addicted to as is evident by my battles with Coca Cola addiction and my newly confessed Swiss Cake Roll obsession.